Love...

So many people will hate me for this but its not like i really care. Love could be one of the wrongest things to ever hit you yet it could be the best or bestest as some will call it! I don't what to call mine yet cos i just refuse to give up. Well, let me tell you all a short part of my story!

It is a great feeling to know you love someone and you are loved in return. its almost the best feeling in the world. Nothing else really matters at some point!

We met via BBM. we were in the same school although different level and different courses. We got talking and started liking each other. we will talk till late in the night just wanting to wake up to see messages from each other. we were happy! we both had messed up love lives before but we didn't let it get the better part of us. we were gonna make this work and it was

2014 was gonna be a great year for us. Our first meeting was at ICM (Ikeja City Mall). Althoug she kept me waiting for over an hour waiting, i guess being late is just a lidies thing (smiles). We were happy to finally meet each other! We saw a movie and after that we decided to hang a little while before going home. we had ice creams and talked like we were the best of friends with endless gossips! She kept saying 'hi' to so many people which i didnt like for! It was like she knew everybody! Haba, no be only you waka come? kilode?

We all went home happy like we had just met jesus physically. We got chatting as usual about how the day was and all! Things went on smooth till we resumed school. Couldn't wait to introduce her to all my friends in school. it was like i was a married man. everyone was always asking 'hows ur wife' and i'll just smile and say 'she's fine'. i felt i had finished that part of my life and all i had to do was finish school, get a good job (most likely start mine) and put her in the most comfortable position a woman can ever ask for!

There were times she would say i say i should stop all the introduction. she would say it is a contract , that we were not fully dating. i ignored it all cos i believed she was just joking. we had feelings that were stronger than a publicity stunt!

She wasn't just a girlfriend, she was a partner. That other half! She would advice me on the things even that niqqa who is your male friend won't! She would say the nicest things to make you happy! WHAT ELSE COULD A GUY ASK FOR?? Its not like we never had little quarels here and there but the make ups were the best parts. We were always happier! She had boys all over her and there was i feeling like the guy who had what other boys wanted! I wasn't the finest of them all, (i no even fine sef, ugly boy like me) but i just had the sincerity and openness she could ask for. I didnt cheat, never lied, it was awesome! Boys should give that a try in their relationships and realize how happy their love life can be!

Oh!, i almost forgot how we spent valentines (chuckles). i got her one big-sized cake! Although i didn't get her that super-duper-large teddy she wanted. She was always appreciating every little deed of mine and it always made me feel as if i never did enough! she also got me stuffs too (smiling, remembering the things she bought!). It was great!

Towards the end of the semester, things came up and she started changing. didn't see me till we went home! then she suddenly dropped the bomb that she couldn't date me anymore. didnt call me or text me. even when i try to call, she hardly picks, even when she does, she says 'am busy' or 'am at work'. it hurts really. saying we cant get back again. it really does. she told me to look for someone else to love. i can't. no one seems to make sense to me again. nothing seems right to love again. i just want to know what she really feels and why she made such a heavy decision all on her own

I REFUSE TO QUIT THOUGH. i am still gonna keep loving her till she whenever! It might sound crazy to you but when you are really in love with someone, you find out that nothing else really mattered at that point inn time! i still love you and will always do. Now i don't know why these tears wont just stop falling (wipes eyes). Am at work o and everyone is wondering what the problem is with me. Well, i guess i just want to be with her! I just feel like writing this out. Makes me feel better. Back to work guys!! :* :'(